Lost in you!!!

I fear the daybreak as it wakes me from dreams of you,
What wouldn’t I give for them to be so true;

Yet love the day, as it brings me closer to you,
I feel a warmth seeping through;

My heart skips a beat, as my eyes rest on you,
Thrilled by the chilling air that just blew;

Hiding those blushes as my cheeks turn red,
Counting my pulse I slowly tread;

As I watch you daily from behind the screens,
I wait for that one fulfilling glimpse;

That innocent smile that spreads on your face,
Drives my nerves to a state of craze;

Today I stand with my hands stretched,
See how your name is in every vein etched;

Wish I could convey these feelings to you,
But scared that I will lose the friendship that just grew;

Every thought of you fills my tiny little heart,
With your image carved even though we are miles apart;

Wiping the tears gushing down from my eyes,
I wonder if you could hear my silent cries;

Why can’t you read my eyes and remove my grief?
And stand by me for however brief?

This never happened before and entirely new,
Will you ever understand this, ‘coz I am totally lost in you!!

On a journey of self realisation…………….

6 years back when my parents asked me to take up engineering as my career, I had no clue of it. I was clueless on the other fields too….. I haven’t decided my career then.
And then I spent 6 years on an endless struggle, trying to figure out the essence of engineering, trying to wake up that sleeping Einstein in me, not to create something new - but to understand what is existing; not to wait for an original idea – but to hasten up my process of learning.
In spite of coming from a line of engineers (-all my cousins), I was always a fish out of water in their presence, as they habitually discussed in their technical jargon.
In college, I met a variety of geeks, ‘cool dudes’, mediocre etc. – they all had a passion for engineering, which I lack.
As a child, I was that one who never worried about why’s and how’s of science; I was so awed by it that I never bothered myself with the reasoning behind it.

So the time is ripe enough for me to steer away in a different direction, to unriddle my complexities and find a new passion in my life..

Bored to death is it with my story? Well that’s what I felt when I was forced to learn “electricity and magnetism from NCERT and HC Verma”!! – and yeah these are my “unspoken reflections” 